If You're Not The 1

For one brief moment..my day had taken..an unexpected turn..you were here..at my door..flawless..and taller..thanks to those heels :)..elated..elevated..I didn't wanna come back down..and as I silently thanked "santa"..for bringing me thee..best..gift..ev..but before I could..just like I knew it would..be..taken away..so swiftly..you had to go..

You were packed again..before the unpacking began..and my heart..sank to my knees..I felt like a kid..on xmas..who had just opened his/her favorite gift..only to learn..there was a recall on it..and it had to go back..

I held onto you..so tightly..letting go..would have been to real..all the emotions..I would be left to deal..with..if I squeezed tighter..maybe your mind would change..but we were both left..to deal with the pain..

Opening presents..over the phone..yet..the sound of your tone..was echoing in my ears..via 2D..for at least..93..minutes or so..I'll never know..who..or what..aspires so much..to keep us apart..

But this entity..or non..will not succeed..T 2010c.


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The REALITY of some shit!!..Mother to son..

Already told me..that you know..Santa is not real..so I knew I had to..kick it to you..straight no chaser..about what is going to take place son..cable is going off soon..so is the computer too..but u can focus more on ur studies..so you don't end up..like I do..lights are still on..for now..I have stripped Peter and Paul..so I do not know how..but I will keep the water running..to wash away your own little burdens..that we often..speak about..pennies have been pinched..and the loaners..have said no..more..can we give you..but imma do the best..that I can do..to make sure you are not b.l.u. even when that morning comes..and there is no light..it will turn on the one..in my heart..if I can make you smile..so bright..Love Mommy,

T 2010copyright
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Questions

Every word is absurd..tired of going..unheard..if I scream loud enough..will that grab..their attention..or get my thoughts..placed back..on detention..in the far corners..of my mind..where the signs..are no longer visible to me..which direction..I should be going..T..2010
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They say pain makes the best art..

so many opportunites I've missed to let my heart bleed thru my pin..onto the paper..turning blue when it hits the air..a reflection of my emotions..breaking into small lines across the pages..I fold the corners of the pages, so it doesn't get onto any thing(one) else..its toxins are deadly..mixed with past pain..present insecurities and future doubts...when tossed into the air.."All I see is fireworks"..pretty colors of confusion..T